I am a terrible person.
I'm 17 years old. ive had s** with quite a few men. ive never been loyal to anyone. i currently have 2 boyfriends. a cop and a construction worker. ones 25 the other 19. im also a mistress, the other woman. he's 30. his wifes a stripper, hes so very unhappy. every chance he gets, he comes to my town and we f*** like rabid wolves. then there's this other guy, hes 28. rich and very sexy. i wanna f*** him, but he doesnt want to get caught.
i have never been caught. no one knows all my secrets.
when i fantasize, i think of the married man.
how i kneel infront of him, with his c*** tonsil deep.
how he eats my p****, telling me im better than his wife.
which must mean im good, cause shes a stripper.
my construction worker boyfriend has all this money, which he spends on me and all my friends.
he gets soo mad that i dont want to have s** with him, but he f**** like an old man! i cant handle that. he's only 19, no where close to being old. sooo i just string him along, getting everything i can out of him.
then theres the cop. he's soooo f****** hot. he reminds me of that sexy irish guy off carlies angels 2. the one who goes after the redhead.
im a pretty lucky gal.
but im just not happy. im very selfish, i feel like i need all these people. i think ill be crushed when i lose even one of them.
i need help. i need something thats going to put forth order in my life.
there's a lot of underlying factors that affect my behavior, alll really relevant.
you know the whole not having a daddy thing. losing my virginity early. being raped. thinking i deserve pain.
but hey, im only human.