As a woman, I'm supposed to represent in everything to do with diversity. I'm supposed to participate in "Women in STEM" events, I'm supposed to join the circle whine about how unfair it is to be a woman in a male world. And I do, I sit nodding at the speakers, I give my own speeches about empowerment, the glass ceiling, and so forth.
I used to believe all that stuff when I was still in school. I don't anymore. After decades of different workplaces I can't bring myself to believe that I'm being kept down or disadvantaged. If anything, the opposite. And I don't see it happening to other women either. Especially the ones complaining most. It's all faith, it just isn't true.
But it makes me feel like a "bad sister" and as if I'm forsaking the great liberation of women. I'm stuck between not being able to believe it anymore, and not coming out and saying so. I've seen what happens to women who do. I don't have the courage to do that. So I keep living a lie.
It’s called conditioning, all ** lies.