i feel like i'm going crazy
my mom is so controlling, i'm 22, really responsible, my idea of a good time is the library. yet mom doesn't trust me. she drives me crazy. i feel like the rope you see in the movies that is snapping thread by thread and eventually snaps. she won't let me go anywhere by myself. reallly, i can't even go outside. she comes to class with me and waits for me in the library, she walks across campus with me and i feel so embarresed like there must be something wrong with me that she won't leave me alone. she won't even let my brother take me anywhere...it's either with her or not at all. i just missed my granny's bday party because she wanted to go home. i've been late and missed class because she's not ready yet. she slaps me sometimes over stupid stuff and she constantly criticizes me about insanely minute things like the pan was left out and the rug is out of place and somehow all these things show how i could never survive on my own. yet the weirdest thing is that sometimes she's normal. sometimes she's nice and sweet and caring. i think she's bipolar. maybe. or just crazy. she's my mom and i still love her and forgive her but i want to move out. but she's said that if i do i'll be betraying her and she'll leave, walk away on the highway if she has to and i'll never hear from her again. i know that she's crazy and stubborn enough to do that. so i stay.