I get called names

I got called names after i had s** with to boys,the older lads started wanting it and if i say no i would get crap all day,so to get it to stop i would give them what they wanted and the rest of the day wouldn't be so bad,it changed me i stopped caring i would tell myself im using them, I've even gone out looking for it no matter there age,my mum has never really been a mother to me i look at my auntie and wish she was my mum i wanted a part of that life,my cousin is a lovely guy if he seen me he would make sure i got home safe, before Christmas he had a few drinks and we ended up watching films,it became every few days watch films and he will leave in the morning, Christmas Eve i asked him to stay because i didn't want to wake up to an empty house,he didn't mind he got used to sleeping on our sofa,I woke up and checked to see if he was still there and seen a little light coming from the living room and peaked in and saw him sat up breathing heavily i peaked in more and saw the blanket going up and down,I kept peaking i knew by the sounds he made he had c** the door creaked and he saw me,he apologized when it should of been me saying that to him,I told him i may only be 14 but i do no about stuff im not a Virgin he said yes but im 24,I said i didn't care he was older age doesn't matter i was basically telling him i would but he wasn't getting what i was hinting at,he tells me to go to bed i couldn't sleep after seeing that 10 minutes later i see the landing light come on and hear him coming to my door my door opens and my light switched on,he said he new what i was offering him but said he is large which i could see he was and didn't think i meant it,I sat up and said not to worry and let me give him his Christmas present early,he was nervous about crossing that line with us being cousin's but i talked him round told him i was on the pill he takes off his boxer shorts and im looking at this fully grown man ready to get in bed with me,he gets in and gets on top he was so sweet and gentle he took it slow making sure each time he went in further i was ok it wasn't nothing like the others i been with quick and fast he took his time making love to me,it must of been for nearly 30 minutes he lifts his body each thrust getting gets faster one last thrust he grabs hold of my headboard and starts to c** im feeling every twitch his c*** is making until he stops and put his dead weight on me,he pulled out and laid next to me panting like a dog not meaning to be both fell asleep waking up in the morning i left him in bed for a little longer when he finally came downstairs without his boxer shorts he was asking if im ok and getting a b**** again i new he wanted more and done it again this time was a quicky,no one knows anything we're careful my auntie thinks he stays to watch films she doesn't have a clue that we sleep together,I don't care about the age gap i think i love him.

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  • Age of consent it 14 in most of Europe, in China, in most of South America, what are people getting worked up about?

  • Don't listen to the haters https://www.cousincouples.com/ Cousin love it the best!

  • I don't believe it. This story has BS all over it. Even if it is true, which I doubt, you are not telling it like it happen.

  • Call the police!

  • Your going to have a big problem!!!
    He is older and if the Law was involved he could go to jail for child rape or under age s.. with a minor.
    Be very careful with what you do it has cocequenses...

  • So why would that be his problem! She is the victim, He should be shot and killed for what he did!

  • You are f***** in your head! Go get mental health Idiot! Might I suggest a medication to try! It's made from Smith&Wesson! All you do is load the pills and put it to your head and squeeze the trigger! It's will cure everything.
    A bullet a day keeps the incest f**** away!!

  • Go f*** yourself first then slice your throat. You can also hang yourself or blow your brains out. Choose one and do your Family and society a favor. Your family won't have to go to court and be embarrassed by having a sexual predator in the family! Society won't have to pay for 3 hots and a cot for you in prison..

  • Fake cake incest propaganda! You haven't f***** anything but Mary Palm ( Rosy or sister Mary what ever you like dumb f***) and her five children..

  • Get a shrink and a rope. Maybe the shrink will talk you out of using the rope. We hope the shrink helps tighten the noose around your neck..

  • Leviticus 18:6-18
    
“None of you shall approach any one of his close relatives to uncover nakedness. I am the Lord. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your father, which is the nakedness of your mother; she is your mother, you shall not uncover her nakedness. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your father's wife; it is your father's nakedness. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your sister, your father's daughter or your mother's daughter, whether brought up in the family or in another home. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your son's daughter or of your daughter's daughter, for their nakedness is your own nakedness.,

  • Understanding and treating survivors of incest
    March 6, 2018

    Adults with histories of being abused as children present unique challenges for counselors. For instance, these clients often struggle with establishing and maintaining a therapeutic alliance. They may rapidly shift their notion of the counselor from very favorable to very unfavorable in line with concomitant shifts in their emotional states. Furthermore, they may anxiously expect the counselor to abandon them and thus increase pressure on the counselor to prove otherwise. Ironically, attempts at reassurance by the counselor may actually serve to validate these clients’ fears of abandonment.
    The motivating factor for many of these clients is mistrust of people in general — and often for good reason. This article explores the psychological and interpersonal aspect of child sexual abuse by a parent and its treatment, with a particular focus on its relationship to betrayal trauma, dissociation and complex trauma.
    Incest and its effects
    Child abuse of any kind by a parent is a particularly negative experience that often affects survivors to varying degrees throughout their lives. However, child sexual abuse committed by a parent or other relative — that is, incest — is associated with particularly severe psychological symptoms and physical injuries for many survivors. For example, survivors of father-daughter incest are more likely to report feeling depressed, damaged and psychologically injured than are survivors of other types of child abuse. They are also more likely to report being estranged from one or both parents and having been shamed by others when they tried to share their experience. Additional symptoms include low self-esteem, self-loathing, somatization, low self-efficacy, pervasive interpersonal difficulties and feelings of contamination, worthlessness, shame and helplessness..

  • One particularly damaging result of incest is trauma bonding, in which survivors incorporate the aberrant views of their abusers about the incestuous relationship. As a result, victims frequently associate the abuse with a distorted form of caring and affection that later negatively influences their choice of romantic relationships. This can often lead to entering a series of abusive relationships.
    According to Christine Courtois (Healing the Incest Wound: Adult Survivors in Therapy) and Richard Kluft (“Ramifications of incest” in Psychiatric Times), greater symptom severity for incest survivors is associated with:
    * Longer duration of abuse
    * Frequent abuse episodes
    * Penetration
    * High degree of force, coercion and intimidation
    * Transgenerational incest
    * A male perpetrator
    * Closeness of the relationship
    * Passive or willing participation
    * Having an erotic response
    * Self-blame and shame
    * Observed or reported incest that continues
    * Parental blame and negative judgment
    * Failed institutional responses: shaming, blaming, ineffectual effort
    * Early childhood onset.

  • Early childhood onset
    Incest that begins at a young age and continues for protracted periods — the average length of incest abuse is four years — often results in avoidance-based coping skills (for example, avoidance of relationships and various dissociative phenomena). These trauma-forged coping skills form the foundation for present and future interpersonal interactions and often become first-line responses to all or most levels of distress-producing circumstances.
    More than any other type of child abuse, incest is associated with secrecy, betrayal, powerlessness, guilt, conflicted loyalty, fear of reprisal and self-blame/shame. It is of little surprise then that only 30 percent of incest cases are reported by survivors. The most reliable research suggests that 1 in 20 families with a female child have histories of father-daughter child sexual abuse, whereas 1 in 7 blended families with a female child have experienced stepfather-stepdaughter child sexual abuse (see the revised edition of The Secret Trauma: Incest in the Lives of Girls and Women by Diana E. H. Russell, published in 1999).
    In 1986, David Finkelhor, known for his work on child sexual abuse, indicated that among males who reported being sexually abused as children, 3 percent reported mother-son incest. However, most incest-related research has focused on father-daughter or stepfather-stepdaughter incest, which is the focus of this article!

  • Subsequent studies of incest survivors indicated that being eroticized early in life disrupted these individuals’ adult sexuality. In comparison with nonincest controls, survivors experienced sexual intercourse earlier, had more s** partners, were more likely to have casual s** with those outside of their primary relationships and were more likely to engage in s** for money. Thus, survivors of incest are at an increased risk for revictimization, often without a conscious realization that they are being abused. This issue often creates confusion for survivors because the line between involuntary and voluntary participation in sexual behavior is blurred.
    An article by Sandra Stroebel and colleagues, published in 2013 in Sexual Abuse: A Journal of Research and Treatment, indicates that risk factors for father-daughter incest include the following:
    * Exposure to parent verbal or physical violence
    * Families that accept father-daughter nudity
    * Families in which the mother never kisses or hugs her daughter (overt maternal affection was identified as a protective factor against father-daughter incest)
    * Families with an adult male other than the biological father in the home (i.e., a stepfather or substitute father figure)

  • Finally, some qualitative research notes that in limited cases, mothers with histories of being sexually abused as a child wittingly or unwittingly contribute to the causal chain of events leading to father-daughter incest. Furthermore, in cases in which a mother chooses the abuser over her daughter, the abandonment by the mother may have a greater negative impact on her daughter than did the abuse itself. This rejection not only reinforces the victim’s sense of worthlessness and shame but also suggests to her that she somehow “deserved” the abuse. As a result, revictimization often becomes the rule rather than the exception, a self-fulfilling prophecy that validates the victim’s sense of core unworthiness!

  • Beyond the physical and psychological harm caused by father-daughter incest, Courtois notes that the resulting family dynamics are characterized by:
    * Parent conflict
    * Contradicting messages
    * Triangulation (for example, parents aligned against the child or perpetrator parent-child alignment against the other parent)
    * Improper parent-child alliances within an atmosphere of denial and secrecy
    Furthermore, victims are less likely to receive support and protection due to family denial and loyalty than if the abuser were outside the family or a stranger. Together, these circumstances often create for survivors a distorted sense of self and distorted relationships with self and others. If the incest begins at an early age, survivors often develop an inherent sense of mistrust and danger that pervades and mediates their perceptions of relationships and the world as a whole.

    #THE REAL SIDE OF INCEST.

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