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Hi there,
I would like to share some of the experience I have experienced growing up and I really don’t know where or who to speak to so I ended up here.
At the age of 19 i decided to go pay for a prostitution because everyone around me in high school was getting laid so I decided to try it.
My first time going to a prostitution my ** did not even get hard some times because I was so nervous I couldn’t control my nerves and we didn’t end up having ** even tho the lady tried everything and then she said this is your first and I was like yes . So after having bad experience first time I decided to try it again with another lady and I managed to lose my virginity to a lady.
At the age of 22 I started watching ** ** accidentally and then I loved the way they looked and how beautiful some of them are with their dominate look. I couldn’t stop watching ** ** at all and then sometimes I enjoyed watching dominate ** destroy small men. I find it very amazing and I used to think I wish that was me laying down there while she does the work.
At the age of 23 I decided to go on Craigslist and try find a ** on there but I ended up finding only men looking for other men so I took few pictures of my body and posted it there.
I had plenty of responses and one of them asked me to come over. So I went to his house and there was a tall welsh man in his boxers opening the door for me, as I walked in to the living room he had a massage bed setup and asked me to take off my clothes. I did not hesitate I took off everything and he saw my ** and I told him it’s my first time.
So he asked me to lay down on the massage bed and I was getting massages with his warm oil and big hands rubbing all over my body, then I couldn’t stop staring at his boxers where his white ** is and I asked him to take off his boxers with a soft voice and he said of course, after that I kept staring at his ** then he came closer and I couldn’t wait I told I put it In my mouth. So I had his ** for few seconds in my mouth then I felt disgusted so I stopped sick his **.
He then started stretching my ** with his fingers and he made moan so hard that I really want him stretch me with his ** but I couldn’t accept being ** by another man. At the end he made me ** and then I got dressed and left.
When I walked outside I vomited because I felt disgusted but I really wanted to be with him.
After 5 months I went back home and I went on Craigslist again and I was messaged by an older man so was really interested in meeting up so I decided to meet up with him then he took me to his flat.
When we got to the flat I took of my clothes and he put a condom on his big ** and made me sick it and I enjoyed every minute off it so I started choking on it.
Then I felt like I should let him do what ever he wants but because I have never been ** before he only rimmed me while I was blowing him in a 69 position.
He tried to stretch me with small ** but I was too tight and it was painful so he actually made me ** and he swallowed my **.
After that I told him I want to leave and he dropped me home.
4 years down the line and I haven’t been touched by another man and now I am with my girlfriend for 3 years. My problem is that I am getting desired ** feelings for ** and I can’t stop watching ** or ** ** **, I don’t know what to do and I wish I had the same feeling but for a **.
Sometimes now I get so ** when seeing ** on ** site and I tried to stop going on these sites but I still can’t stop.
I even managed to ** without touching my ** because I kept thinking of penises and **.
I decided to share this because I really want to talk to someone or see if anyone has had this issue previously and how you got over it.
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