Someone to help me commit suicide

Try Read the Bible, you'll die but you'll be reborn

Get help sweetie. What country are you in?

Get some help please. Tell someone you trust that you're having suicidal ideation and tendencies.

I don't know who you are, but whatever you are going through...it is not worth it. Do not believe the voice in your head. You are valuable more than you know. God made you for a purpose. Put your load on Him. He can carry you and whatever the burden you are have.

That's because you lack commitment! No, but seriously. If you've messed up that many times maybe it's because you really don't want to do it and just want some help instead.