Please help idk anymore
I am a 11yr old boy and I think i have anxiety idk if i have depression but I cry a lot and dislike talking to people. I'm not really sure what I'm feeling and I'm scared to do anything. I'm scared to grow up because then I have to have a relationship but, I don't wanna have a relationship I don't wanna be hurt I don't wanna argue. My friend committed suicide 4 months ago he was 13 and it was bc his girlfriend broke up with him. I don't wanna be hurt, I don't wanna feel that, I just want the pain to stop and I want help but I can't talk to my parents bc I don't wanna stress them out there already stressed out enough!
I don't wanna die because I don't want to hurt anyone but then again would they care if I died? I feel like a spoiled brat and I'm being dramatic because I have everything I could want. The only traumatic thing that's every really happened to me is when my mom and my step dad got into a argument and then my step dad started breaking down in front of me trying to choke himself with a belt. But idk I'm sorry for wasting your time.