Please help idk anymore

I am a 11yr old boy and I think i have anxiety idk if i have depression but I cry a lot and dislike talking to people. I'm not really sure what I'm feeling and I'm scared to do anything. I'm scared to grow up because then I have to have a relationship but, I don't wanna have a relationship I don't wanna be hurt I don't wanna argue. My friend committed suicide 4 months ago he was 13 and it was bc his girlfriend broke up with him. I don't wanna be hurt, I don't wanna feel that, I just want the pain to stop and I want help but I can't talk to my parents bc I don't wanna stress them out there already stressed out enough!
I don't wanna die because I don't want to hurt anyone but then again would they care if I died? I feel like a spoiled brat and I'm being dramatic because I have everything I could want. The only traumatic thing that's every really happened to me is when my mom and my step dad got into a argument and then my step dad started breaking down in front of me trying to choke himself with a belt. But idk I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Aug 21

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  • Sounds like you need to talk to a counselor about what has been going on! Talk with someone about your friend who committed suicide. I would be very careful about talking about your stepdad. Sometimes school or police may think your home is not safe if an adult is messing up and they can remove you and your siblings. It becomes a hard process to come back home after that so be careful.

    Some other things I want to address: you dont ever have to be in a relationship if you dont want to. I feel a relationship before you are 18 is too early. A love relationship is an adult matter and if adults have a hard time with one how will a kid handle it? I say do all the fun things in life you want. Get a job, your own car and apartment then date. You'll have the money and more maturity to work from.

    If you feel sad all the time you might be depressed. Can you tell what is making you sad? Sometimes making a list helps you find the problem and then you can fix it.

    Finally, if you did die people will certainly care! It may not seem like it but it could wreck your whole family. Children arent supposed to die early. No parent can really handle that pain. That pain and emptiness never leaves. My dad died 2 years ago and it feels like a giant hole in my house and my heart. Families change when a person dies.

    My advice friend, is to not worry about the future. Do your best now to be the best you you can be. Look for ways to be happy and to help others. Life is wonderful. Enjoy it as you go. You dont have to be friends with everyone just care for people who need your help if you can give it.

  • The first thing I want to address is my stepdad he is thankfully out of my life now which Is good. Also I don't wanna talk to a counselor they most likely don't care about me and I don't want them to tell my parents about me. And there's a mix of things that make me down I don't have many friends and most of my old friends well they aren't my friends no more I'm always left out and I'm kinda just the weird kid in the back that doesn't talk much and has no friends. And I can't not worry the future that and the past is the only thing I think about bc I overthink everything. Also thank you for commenting and trying to help but idk

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