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Saw an anonymous posting of another natural born ** and decided to post my story as well.
I'm 45 years old and for the last 25 if those years I honestly thought I had kallmann(s) syndrome. Simply put: a pituitary gland disorder prohibiting the person with it from reaching physical maturity naturally if at all possible.
Sums me up pretty darn well. In fact, got a diagnosis at 20 after being informed that my former diagnosis at 15 with delayed puberty was wrong, lol.
The last few months have been a whirlwind of revelations. In short, my parents didn't have answers and I took drastic measures. Got my hands on medical records of my birth, toddler years, an incident when I was 11, and from that idiot endocrinologist (at Akron hospital for the record that finally diagnosed me with delayed puberty.
Why the ** doctors write so badly is beyond my understanding..do they take a course in chicken scratch or what? I ended up having to recruit some help to decipher my records.
Case in point, Sept of 77 the doctor failed to measure my **, but he did take notice of undescended testicles and the fact that I was born with a hernia. 6 weeks later, they descended my right **. From what we could decipher, there were concerns about my lack of development and felt no need to alarm my parents on the matter. (****Facepalm****)
At 20 I was in excruciating pain on my "left side" and after seeing the doctor it was determined that my left ** was a dud and had to be removed. 2 months later bye bye birdy. Ironically, I remember the nurse asking me if I wanted my right one removed as well, but I honestly never gave it a thought. Thought it was asked in jest. Considering everything going on these days, I have to wonder about that now. In any case, the matter should never have been brought up with me in the first place, but my parents instead. Alas, apparently that's a political subject, though I will say that to me that's a common sense subject.
At 15 and 16 there are completely undecipherable notes on the sides pertaining to "delayed puberty". Like literally folks. Looks almost like someone made it that way on purpose. And yes, I'm sure he wasn't clearing his pen on the side either. Can make out a couple of one and three letter words here and there. Whatever he wrote, it warranted some of it being underlined 3 times. Khh, and I thought my fathers handwriting was unreadable, good gravy!
Micropenis, right ** is a complete dud. As far as I can tell, they should have removed it as a baby rather than descending it.
Obviously single and no, not looking. I'm straight and I'm a male. I'm a complete recluse from society the last 23 years. Society has a way of cruelly punishing those that are "different" and won't let up till you break.
I grew up without friends, school was absolute **. Bullied literally everyday. Some physical, some verbal. I consider myself the class of 97 and 99. Why? In HS I refused to take phys Ed and it was the state requirement to graduate. Guess which class I absolutely refused to take, lol. No act test, that came after my class. Got her in 99. Took test in 98 and in Jan of the following year, got GED. Then life went and got especially cruel with me.
Living in seclusion for the last several years takes a heavy toll on a person, as I have learned. Good way to develop and get diagnosed with a plethora of issues. Mental, that is.
I have come to the realization and acceptance that happiness in this life does NOT exist for everyone. Certainly not for me. Instead, I seek to be content. Bitterness and anger currently winning over that idea at the moment.
Even if I could somehow gain some sense of normalcy to deal with people there's other issues as well. Two things that have been with me my entire life (and no, not abused folks). I never make eye contact with people and I hate all forms of physical contact with others. Not a germaphobe either.
My last counselor (broke things off due to a breach of trust) said it was because of my being on the autism spectrum, but things went really sour shortly after that.
Sad too, that was the first time I sought help. Haven't talked to anyone on the phone since that happened either...that being almost 4 years now. Extreme phone anxiety went up 10 notches, lol. Destroyed phone cameras, disabled software..yup, I was **. Then called up the facility, gave em ** and blocked everyone on my phone from verbal discussions. Text only.
I still have no desire to be around people, but even I know my future is gonna be down right bleak in the next 20 years (20 years younger than parents). So e form of independence would be nice, where I can function and act normally with others...though I honestly can't see that being possible.
I love on the family property, but I am completely dependent on others. I help maintain the farm and I scare the living daylights out of trespassers. And no, I don't like living on a farm...but it sure beats living on the streets! Once was enough for me, tyvm.
I'm the person who posted about being a natural born **. I have Kallmann';s. Although I am single right now I've had girlfriends in the past. JUst because you are different does not mean u need to be a recuse from society. I usually cant stand people either but I deal with them. I hope you find happiness somehow. You deserve it. Everyone does. Don't judge yourself by society's standards. Just because we are different doesn't mean we are less than anyone else.
Sounds like you can sue them for malpractice.
There are support groups for people like you. Just watch out for the fetishist crowd.