I like the attention
I have been in my relationship for 5 years now and my SO has entertained about 4-5 people while we’ve been together. nothing physical has ever happened, but it still sucked. nevertheless, i’ve always know i’m very attractive, and i can be very flirtatious when i want to. all that go say, it has never been hard or difficult for me to get the attention i want when i want it. i could do more too if i wanted to, but i digress.
recently, i have had some people return to my life from my past and they are giving me the attention i’m wanting with no strings attached. this is a very fulfilling experience for me. i’d be more open to being honest with my SO if they hadn’t lied to me and attempted to keep their entertaining friends a secret, i would’ve been open to them just talking to meet their need if it had been a discussion.
all this to say, i don’t feel bad and i’m enjoying myself.