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Tw child sexual trauma
In my whole life I've been touched on my private parts by four people, some of them multiple times, all of them when I was under the age of 10. First was on a playground, right next to a teacher that wasn't paying attention when I was like 3, second one was by my oldest brother (he's 6 years older) in a bathtub, then multiple times by my older brothers friend without anyone knowing for idk how long, and then by my neighbor that was one year younger than me. Bcs he was younger I sometimes feel like it's all my fault, sometimes even all the other stuff. I'm about to turn 16 in few months and I still feel disgusted thinking bout having a sexual relationship w anyone. I rlly suffered bcs of it at the age 8-12, I was thinking bout it 24/7, regretting everything bcs I started realizing what all that was, but I never did anything about it because they weren't adults and I never rlly resisted or anything, I thought it was a like a game. I'm feeling a lot better now, but I needed to get it out.
The first time I was ever had my privates touched it was by an adult female that was a friend of my mother. It was the very first time for me but I somehow did not hesitate to fully engage with her in lesbian activities. I never told on her and my mom has no idea I did stuff with her friend behind my mother's back for almost like two years.
Just admit it. You enjoyed it.
Oh my god. you're disgusting