My friend Ana

I am 19 and I study at an international school in Belgium. One of the first year students this year is Ana. Ana is from the Netherlands. I met her at the freshmen welcome party and we became friends. We talked and danced and then I walked her to her room. Ana invited me inside, made coffee and we talked for hours about anything. I learned that she likes endurance sports (triathlons, etc.) and that she studied biology. We kissed too and I slept next to her on her bed. In the morning she got up early and prayed. Ana is *extremely* pious.

So we have been friends for 5 months now. And it went from kissing to other things quite quick too and I could be a perfectly happy young man in love with a fit and intelligent girl. But this is just not the way with Ana. And I do not know why.

On our second or third night together, I noticed Ana would let me have her in any imaginable way. I knew she had two boyfriends before me and I too had two girlfriends before her. So when I saw that I got fully satisfied and she did not, I asked her if anything was wrong with me - if maybe I was just not her type. Ana was very open and told me she did not get excited with her ex bfs either, and that was why - she thought - they gave up on her. But I was not going to give up on her, and I told her this. And she was happy to continue meeting me too - as much as our studies allowed.

I also asked Ana why she was so quick to do all exotic love playing with me and she said that was because she was afraid she could be lesbian or asexual or anything else. So she wanted to try everything and anything before deciding if she wanted to get help from a specialist in trying to understand why she does not feel any desire. So there I was with a friend and lover but kind of not loved back. Or actually just not desired back. For I had no doubt Ana liked me a lot (up to giving me a beautiful mountain bike for my birthday).

In December Ana asked me I would understand it if she tried making love with a lesbian girl from her class. I thought about it for a day and then I told her that I would understand. So she started to meet that girl. But soon she told me she did not feel anything special with her either. They kissed and touched but there were no sparks flying. So now Ana thought she was not lesbian. But she wanted to keep on experimenting.

Next thing she tried was that she asked her female date to let me look at them making love. For me, it was a wild thing to do. Excited, I agreed. I had always been wondering what it was like when two girls make love. So one evening we met the three of us and we experimented all night. They kissed and touched and I watched them. I got very excited and the other girl too, but Ana not at all. So it ended up with me being given oral by Ana while the other girl gave oral to her. I was very pleased, but Ana was not, and she called it quits. Ana said girls are not her thing for sure.

In January Ana had another idea. An even wilder one. But now that we had that experience with a lesbian girl, it was easier for me to say yes. Ana wanted to try if she could get satisfaction from having two men make love to her. I was very nervous as I have only ever seen this in ** videos. But it turned out not as bad as I expected. We went dancing to a students' disco place. I danced with her and then she danced with other young men and she let one of them come with us to her room. That boy knew I was Ana's bf but he did not seem to care.

Once in Ana's room the boy started ** her quickly and then they sat in a sofa and I sat on the other side of Ana. The boy was fast to kiss and touch but Ana slowed him down and she just kissed him and she used her free hand to stroke my rod. Then she took of her clothes completely and had that boy to sit still on the sofa. Then she gave oral to that boy and to me, changing between us any time she saw we got too hot. Then she had us cool down a bit and later she rubbed that boys ** with her bottom and she did the same to me. So he got satisfied very soon and me soon after him. We did that without rubbers and when Ana started rubbing me I saw that his load was all over her buttocks and holes. As Ana told me she was on a pill I too let my load go on her slit while she rubbed herself on my slippery **.

That boy meant to leave now but Ana made him stay overnight. And later during the night she gave us both rubbers and she let us go inside her. We tried many positions and we changed places. I watched Ana and I was sure nothing special happened for her. But of course me and that boy we both got very excited. I could see Ana was kind of desperate and she asked us to do many things to her that I would never imagine were possible at all. Finally she sat on that boy and she showed to me to come from behind. When I did, Ana directed my ** towards her a--l hole. I never did that before and I did not know how to go about it. Ana leant forward and opened like a ripe fruit and I then I entered her very slowly and when I was mostly inside her, she started moving her bottom giving pleasure to that boy inside her one hole and me in her other hole. It did not last long though - that boy finished when he pushed very deep into her and then he groaned and started throwing his load inside Ana. When he did so Ana opened up even wider and this caused that all my ** went now into her a--l hole and I too finished inside her almost immediatelly - with my liquid shooting out before I had time to think of it and pull out.

Ana let the boy go now. We stayed in her room and slept some and when we woke up in the morning we talked. After our talk Ana decided to stop experimenting. We are now good friends and we bike together and I started to run with her too, much as my running is nothing like what she does during the sport events she competes at.

Ana thinks her religious piety has nothing to do with her limited desire. And now that she tried she knows she is neither lesbian nor looking for extreme stimuli. She has not had any bad emotional nor sexual past that she could remember of.

So this is where we are at with Ana. I do like her so much I would consider living with her. Especially now that I felt such an immense pleasure while doing all the wild and extreme things in bed with her. But I know over time her lack of desire could end our relationship and I would hate that.

Not sure where to go now. Ana prays every day and she has made an appointment with a sexologist. I hope very much the specialist will either tell her what can be done or else tell her that this is just the way she is. Some people have no desire or only very low level of it. So she may be one of these people.

I hope very much I will be able to keep my relation with Ana. At least at the level we have now with just being good friends and doing things together. Maybe in the end love making is not the ultimate target of life. But I just do not know. For my life has not been long enough to tell.