I am a zoophile and i seriously want to stop being one

21F. Thanks to zoophile ** sites being uncensored in my country, i’ve always had easy access to those types of videos since age 12/13 when i first stumbled across them. I get phases where i’m a total degenerate and fantasise about being ** by animals. Dogs and pigs mainly.

I can’t control how much i get turned on by this **. I wish i never was. I feel so much shame and i know how badly i would be hated if i was ever discovered to be a zoophile. It’s illegal in my country too so i don’t want to be thrown in jail if i ever get caught committing **. I hate how i’ve had moments where i would seriously consider ** an animal in real life.

I’m not even a virgin and it’s not even hard for me to **, yknow, human men. I think it’s something to do with my insecurities of never being treated well or loved by one. Humans choose to love one girl and treat the other girl like **. I’m that other girl. In my mind i’ve been infected. Thinking, at least animals are just simple minded ** machines not beings that would treat one right and another like **. At least ** would make me feel less hurt.

I have never had any luck with men, guess i’m not so worthy of being loved by one. Casual ** would hurt me. I’m worth more than just casual ** to humans. But I’m still a ** degenerate at the same time i guess. I’m a mess. Horniness and insecurities are ** me over

I guess being a zoophile is me coping with my insecurities though in a ** up way.

Don’t know.