My First,

My first suicide attempt was when I was around 6 years old. I used to try and drown myself hen I went swimming but it never worked, everyone assumed I just held my breath really well. Almost ten ears has past since and I still contemplate and plan it, I can't help it. I get so sad and feel so worthless, I always chicken out but fear the day I don't. The only thing besides fear that has stopped me is my mum doesn't need a dead daughter on her hands, I love her too much for that. She also doesn't need a depressed one either, so it remains unkown to anyone but me.

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  • This could be my story. I always stopped myself because of someone I loved. Except one time where I took a handfull of sleeping pills and spent 8 days in a coma. What changed things for me is relationships. I got away from destructive ones, the people who made me sad. and I became a christian In times of difficulty I have my faith that sees me through. I wish you welll

  • you probably don't actually want to kill yourself since you can't go through with it, stop trying, it's not worth it. you should see a counselor/therapist.

  • Thank you oh so much but no what I am saying is I have know clue what to do about my weird suicidal-ness. Thanks a heap load for the vote of sel confidence really, it's overwhelming.

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