Trying to hold on

I just turned 18. my best friend committed suicide 2 months ago. most days i want to follow in her footsteps, we talked about it a lot. that sounds f***** up, and i guess it was.
i love the rest of my friends, but i feel like all theirlive's are moving while im stuck in this black hole i cant get out of, i dont even wanna get out of it.

when i was 14 i was sexually molested by my step-father. my mom believed him over me. ive never told anyone that.

im afraid to get close to people, always have been.

i worry that ill never find anyone else in this world to care about me.i think im too fat, too dumb, not pretty enough. but people who are all those things find love everyday, right?

so whats wrong with me?

Jul 15, 2010

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