I don't think I'll ever be happy. I go

I don't think I'll ever be happy. I go to a really tough college. I am known in my hometown as the smart kid that was perfect, never got in trouble, followed the rules, and is going far in life. It makes me feel as if I have to fulfill everybody's hopes. What if I don't make it though this college and become the successful person everybody believes I will become. On top of all that, I am bi and nobody knows. I'm in love with my best friend and he doesn't know it, and I don't think I would be able to handle all the criticism if I were to come out. So I guess I'll just have to live a lie for the rest of my life fulfilling everybody else's wishes for me. I'll never be able to get what I want. My dad would kill me if he knew. I would not be able to go on living because my dad would see me as his failure probably.


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  • do whatever makes YOU happy. f*** what everybody else thinks... its your life your the one living it! live the life you love, love the life you live. :]

  • i have this exact problem you want to please everyone and it is impossible it never works. stress at college drives u mad and it is just too difficult i fully understand what ur saying

  • Nothing is soo terrible that you can't confide in someone.. posting it on the net probably is the first little start but getting your feelings out to your fam is the next. Maybe talk to a counsellor or your Mum over your Dad.

  • Maby you just think everyone thinks that of you. In reality they just want you to be happy. That's just the name you've created for yourself and it got old, you don't want that anymore. You just want to impress everyone and proove you have what it takes. Although you just have soo much pressure. Take a few moments out from your hectic life, I'm sure that you can get through life without a heavy weight on your shoulders. There's no time like the present to change it to your liking. You only get one shot at life. Make the best of it and have some fun.

  • just end it.

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