I don't think I'll ever be happy. I go
I don't think I'll ever be happy. I go to a really tough college. I am known in my hometown as the smart kid that was perfect, never got in trouble, followed the rules, and is going far in life. It makes me feel as if I have to fulfill everybody's hopes. What if I don't make it though this college and become the successful person everybody believes I will become. On top of all that, I am bi and nobody knows. I'm in love with my best friend and he doesn't know it, and I don't think I would be able to handle all the criticism if I were to come out. So I guess I'll just have to live a lie for the rest of my life fulfilling everybody else's wishes for me. I'll never be able to get what I want. My dad would kill me if he knew. I would not be able to go on living because my dad would see me as his failure probably.