What's wrong with me?
I'm 16, me and this guy flirted a lot in class and I felt we were going somewhere. He ended up telling me to never forget him before the school year ended, next year we never spoke all he did was stare. Occasionally we ended up running into each other and he would speak but I would be too shocked that he even spoke to me that I didn't know what to do besides be shy. Him not talking to me made me feel horrible, like he hated me. I ended up becoming depressed and going to the extent of trying to end my life and cutting my wrist multiple times. It Lasted for a period of 2 or three months until I soon became numb, but I felt better and I slowly began to realize that we would never end up together. Now I'm in between with my feelings, I'm not sad, But I don't feel as happy as I could be. After the "depression" I think I mentally shut myself out of being able to feel again, now I don't feel as emotionally connected and I feel numb/happy. How do I allow myself to be able to feel again?