WHY DO I HATE LIFE?
I hate my life. I just can't live like this anymore, I know I'm a lot more fortunate than many other people around the world. My parents have good careers I live in a nice house and I have a good education and a little brother. I just cant find the time to enjoy myself anymore, I can't find the time to do anything. I get sidetracked so easily its not even funny. I spend so much effort and time doing my assignments and they never seem to stop, my mum thinks I'm useless she thinks I can't focus but she doesn't know what it's like being a 13 year old kid and never getting the leisure time that everyone else seems to get. I get really mad at one of my friends who is sometimes a real b****. And I find there's nothing to look forward too. The school holidays are coming up but they only last 2 weeks. Good things never last huh? I agree. I hate myself I don't know if i'm pretty. I want to be a model when I grow up but I don't think I have high enough self esteem. People say i'm pretty but I don't believe them. I've got no real friends who are boys my age. I want to kill myself sometimes, i have tried it many times before. I hid behind a mask that no one can see through, but sometimes it cracks and i feel sad and lonely and no one can help me. I try to act like it's all okay but it never is. I feel like s*** and I often wonder how anyone can enjoy life. No one takes me seriously when I suggest that i have depression I smile a lot but my smiles are fake, I can't open up to anyone because I can't express myself the way I want to, to anyone, I NEED HELP. DOES ANYONE ELSE FEEL THIS WAY? DO YOU THINK I HAVE DEPRESSION OR AM SHOWING THE EARLY SIGNS OF DEPRESSION? i also have really bad sleep and have lately had a loss of appetit and have been unable to focus at school. Thanks for helping, you'll help me just by leaving a comment so i can have your advice, thankyou.