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No love
So when I was in high school, I really wanted a boyfriend. Or a girlfriend. But if a guy showed any interest in me, he would lose it the moment he found out I was a virgin. Now that I'm not a vigin anymore, guys lose interest the moment they get **. I've had fruitless, nonsexual relationships with women who were trying to get back at their boyfriends, but I don't know. Maybe I'm just not the type of person people fall in love with. It's hard when something you want more than anything will likely never happen 50% of marriages end in devorce. I'd take temporary love if anyone were offering.
If anyone comments with a "it's all going to be all right!" I'll come to your house in the middle of the night and set all of your stuff on fire.
How about fake love, would you accept that? I would be willing to have ** with you, pretend it was more than **, come back for more on a regular basis, always cuddling you afterward telling you how special you are to me. I also would be supportive of your bisexual tendencies, encouraging you to bring another girl into our bed. But maybe you aren't very good at ** and that's why guys lose interest immediately. I would train you. By the time I am done you will be one hot little sexpot. There, I didn't say it was going to be all right. But it will be hot.
...no, that would probably make me cry. Like now I'm crying right now. ** this. That's probaly what I'd get if I tried to find love.
I give up. It's ** over. I wish it wasn't, but it is. I also wish I had the ** to kill myself to be rid of this agonizing lonliness and sexual frustration, but I don't. I just wanted you guys to know.
So next time someone uses me for their own personal gratification, I will remember this post. I am nineteen. The world is **. There is no love here. I give up. I can made up an imaginary friend to hold me and tell me they love me and that everything will be alright and actually mean it. A reminder to myself: Do not engage in flirtations. A relationship or something like it will benefit the other person but will definatelly ** you right up the **, sometimes literally.