Life :/

All of my family have died throughout my life, now im 19. In school i was the guy to be with, everybody wanted to be with me for a laugh, and they did, but it went downhill after we left, i became less attached to my mates and now they all smoke weed/ go round clubs all the time, but either of those are my thing. i know for a fact ive got mental health problems, ive known for years, but will my step mum and dad or even doctors believe me? No... and now i just sit in my room all day, checking my facebook every now and again to see if someones took a couple of seconds out of there day to just talk to me, im so f****** lonely, im not fat or ugly, i dont like to blow my own trumpet or anything but im fairly attractive, im just too insecure to find a girlfriend i guess. Nobody i know understands what im going through/how i feel/what i want to do (either do i really), i want to be myself but i dont know what myself is anymore, i just want to be loved in all honesty :/ ( sorry about punctuation and everything, i couldnt get it out of my system quick enough)


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  • I've been there. I know the feeling of being lost and feeling disconnected. I'm sad you're going through this. You aren't alone. Btw, if I were you, I would stop going on FB as much... when I was depressed, I realised FB played a huge factor in it because I was comparing my life to other's and I felt really left out. In reality, everyone is struggling with something and they only show the world their best moments for whatever reason... honestly, what pulled me out of my depression, was hearing the stories of other people. Raw, detailed stories. Not the "I just worked really hard and now I'm successful." but the people who said "I remember being depressed at 18 until 20 and I couldn't find any work. Then, one day, I tried something new and...." Catch my drift? It made me realise that what I was experiencing was normal and I was in control of my life. I can create the life I want I just need to get out of my head and start taking actions. You can do it too... I know you're scared that your family won't listen. I bet if they see how serious you are about it, they will help. Look up a therapist, do the research, and present it to them. Bring up the topic and don't be afraid to be vulnerable. Reach out to people -- it can be making phone calls, writing them, etc. it doesn't have to be anything extreme. Take it one day at a time. I wish I knew you so I could help you step by step because I know exactly what you're going through... Just know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Don't give up. There are people rooting for you even if you can't see it right now. Think of all the people who love you. Who have ever supported you even in the smallest of ways. A teacher, a relative, a friend... anyone who you felt love from. You can do it.

  • Sounds like you're really lonely and depressed. Try going to a different doctor for a second opinion. Regardless, maybe they could give you something for your depression, at least temporarily. As for facebook.. don't let that be your only outlet to friends. It can be such a waste of time. You need to get out in that world and start exploring, traveling, making new friends, get excited about life. If you meet some people that you like, you may not be so lonely anymore and your spirits will be lifted. And you never know who you may meet. But you have to put in some effort, you can do it..

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