I'm 16. I've been having suicidal thoughts for years. The only thing holding me back is my family and friends. What would they say if the girl they call 'positive' just up and committed? Would they even care. No one knows. and I'm tired of looking around and seeing people judge eachother. It's all they do. Everyones different and no one can handle that.
It's a secret I find easy to keep. I think about telling them. Maybe I could get some help, be happy. But then I see what they say when a suicide help commercial comes on and how 'f***ed up' those people are. I can't tell. I wanted to tell someone. So I came on here. But even here all people do is judge. This world is dissapointing. It's not worth living. I already almost died once; and while they were trying to save me I was telling them not to. No one would even care if I was gone. It'd be better. I am nothing.