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Why did you bother?
I miss you more than you know.Ihad so many firsts with you, and you didn't deserve any of them.I can't believe I ever let myself believe that you really loved me.I can't stop thinking about the time we had together.Every touch, every kiss...you didn't deserve any of it.I completely let you in, which really scared me.And you knew that.I know now that it was a mistake.Every day I am forced to see you, and it kills me every time.When I see you smile, it makes me want to cry, because I know you don't hurt as much as I do.And maybe I seem ok, but every day I go home and cry for what feels like hours.You were my first love, and you broke my heart.You say you feel uncomfortable telling me you love me when we kiss, but you think it's ok to only tell me when we're texting? You broke up with me because you couldn't handle the rumors...well, I've got news for you: the rumors about you and your ex-girlfriend have nothing to do with our relationship, and just because we're not together anymore doesn't mean they'll just go away.And what hurts the most isn't that we're not together anymore; it's that I wasn't worth enough to you that you would stand by me and deal with the rumors.I can't comprehend how you can work so hard for monthes to get me to go out with you, and suddenly just end it.Apparently, once you had gotten everything you wanted from me, I wasn't worth your time anymore.You say you love me and how sorry you are, but how can that be true? You are a coward, and I hate you.But that's a lie.I can't hate you, even though I want to so badly.I love you too much.
You are pathetically needy. Get over this loser. Move on with your life because there's lots more heartache waiting for you, drama queen.