I Can't Hate Him.
No matter how hard I try, I can't hate the person who's caused me trouble for the past two years. It all started when I first met him, two summers ago, riding bikes, and he said he wrote poetry. He was kind, sweet, funny, and a writer with true emotion. Then he turned on me after we were going to go to a dance together, but he broke it off a day before the dance. I badmouthed him the entire time, and he spread rumors about me, such as that I was a ** and whatnot. He spread them until last summer, when we made a truce. He broke it this year and started re-spreading rumors about me because I was friends with his friends, but they also spread rumors about me.
We called another truce about a month ago, and I'm just waiting to see how long it will last.
I can say I hate him. I can say that. But even though he got in the way of me dating his best friend, I honestly don't hate him. I love him for letting me get closer to his best friend.
The problem is, I'm in love with his best friend, and I can't do anything about it. We went out for a week last year but had to break it off because his psycho girlfriend said they never broke up, when in fact they had. He said he still liked her but liked me more, and I broke up with him.
I regret this the most.
Teenage drama.
Joy.