I’m in a weird situation. I don’t know
I’m in a weird situation. I don’t know if I’m technically a paedophile – bear with me though as this isn’t as bad as it sounds.
I’m a 27-year-old man in a relationship with someone my own age, but I’ve been involved with a 16-year-old girl for the past seven months. She’s still at school, and she has a boyfriend. I haven’t actually had proper ‘full’ s** with her (penetration) but I’ve been sexually active with her in another way. She lives with her parents over the road from me and we’ve always been friendly. How this situation came about in the first place is something I can’t be bothered to explain right now, but I’ll explain where we’ve ended up at the moment.
This girl is very confident and self-assured for someone who’s almost seventeen. She’s an example of how girls mature more quickly than boys. She looks more like twenty.two. She’s beautiful in an unconventional way and her body is perfect – small b******, a great a***, flat tummy. Now, the thing is, she’s a bit of a minx; she’s not a loud, lary girl and she’s quite quiet, but this is different from being shy. Once you get to know her, her shyness kind of disappears. She lost her virginity at fourteen and, as I said, she’s nearly seventeen now. But as it turns out, her boyfriend doesn’t bring her to o*****.
This behaviour has turned into a kind of habit now. It’s been going on for about seven months. About every three weeks she pops over to my place; her parents think I’m helping her with her French as I’m a French teacher at a grammar school (not the same school that she attends). And I give her oral s**. I have never f***** her. I won’t say it isn’t frustrating but I take myself off to the bathroom and sort myself out in there, because she’s reluctant to let me penetrate her. I’m so h**** by this point that I’m practically ready to burst so I’d probably disappoint her by not lasting very long. I’m not complaining about the situation but I’m aware that it’s possibly a bit pervy and probably wrong and I don’t want to get into any trouble.
But it’s such fun! I know her responses by now and I can bring her off in two minutes or make it last for as long as twenty. IT TURNS ME ON SO MUCH to put my face between her legs. Because there are no strings attached, because I’ve won her trust over the months, and because her boyfriend doesn’t really satisfy her, she’s become more expressive as time has gone by. She rocks her hips, gets really wet and makes quite a bit of noise. Apologies if this is too much information. Her favourite method is to sit on me! For someone so young, she’s amazing – we both understand what’s going on.
I don’t love this girl and she doesn’t love me, but I love to ‘do’ her and she certainly loves to get her p**** licked. We are friends and there is affection and friendship but not love. This is not a pervert’s fantasy. It’s not wholly satisfactory for me because she won’t let me penetrate her. It is a real situation even though, yes, I know it’s unusual.
Is this behaviour immoral? Am I doing something really wrong?