Suicide

Lately, I've been thinking about commiting suicide. My life is terrible. Everyone hates me.I'm only 13 years old and everyone already hates me. I have wanted to kill myself for awhile, but to be honest I'm scared. My world is falling apart right in front of my eyes.
My brother told me about a week ago that he hated me,said I was a b**** and then said I hope you die. Lately,I just can't sleep.It used to be that my home was the one place for peace and quite,where I could just think, but lately school is safer.
School is terrible for me.I am labeled a nerd because I get straight A's and people say that I am really ugly.They make fun of me by the way I act and respond to things.
I know people are gonna say that this is all just in my head, but your wrong.I need advice.I need a place to vent to. To tell someone what I feel like because all my friends would label me suicidal and that is NOT what I need on top of all the other names I get called. Please leave me some advice.

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  • Definitely try to talk to someone. There's a lot of people out there to help you - teachers, counsellors and parents are might be a good place to start but you can also get help from helplines and things like that. In the USA the main one is 1-800-273-TALK (8255) which has a website at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

    I don't know where you're from but befrienders has a directory of helplines at http://www.befrienders.org/directory (it doesn't work perfectly, the links to different websites sometimes need to be typed into your browser not clicked for some reason or it wont leave the befrienders site).

    Other people won't know you've spoken to someone - don't worry about this, this kind of thing is serious and will be treated with privacy and discretion by adults so you won't get called names or bullied for asking for help.

  • Talk to someone! childline offers great free private counselling services (childline.org.uk), or there's groups like Papyrus (www.papyrus-uk.org/) to help young people thinking about suicide as well as loads of other groups you can get in touch with online. You're young, things will get better.

  • when i was in highschool i was called ugly and fat. i had some extra weight and had glasses and braces. i was the nerd of the bunch, and always felt picked on and disrespected. highschool is horrible for that, but it makes you stronger. when i hit 20, the weight fell off, i got contacts, and becasue of the braces my teeth are straight. i think if you give yourself time to learn and grow you'll be great. dont worry about it. you are beautiful, and you'll figure yourself out. and ppl who put you down are just insecure themselves and take it out on you... makes them look better. you are a diamond in the rough, sweetheart. just give yourself time. <3 you deserve it

  • Hey girlie im about your age and i know exactly how it feels when life is falling apart. I've been called a b**** and told i was useless and unwanted throughout most of my life and ive learned two things. First no matter what their is always someone who loves you and dosent want you to go. Second even if life looks and feels like s*** now, you always have a future that you can create however you want . Don't let people treat you bad and don't ever think life won't get better because it will. Do yourself andeveryone you love a favor and don't ever forget that the best person you can be is you.

  • I know exactly how that feels... I'm the same age as you and a month ago I actually came close to attempting suicide. I'm glad that I chickened out at the last moment. Death doesn't solve anything, my friend. It is so much more uncertain than living through painful things. If anything, my near death experience only causes me to have vivid, terrifying flashbacks, and makes me feel sick when I see a bottle of pills. (pharmacies are a nightmare). I know times get really tough, I had a very similar experience to yours. But the hard times DO get better, I promise. Either your brother is a freaking j*** forever, or he'll eventually come around and be nicer. The nerd thing: I feel ya. I'm the nerdiest of the nerds. The one with glasses and braces and acne. The one getting shoved into lockers and mud puddles. But you have to remember that the people who tease and bully you are going to work under you some day, when you have power and money because you applied yourself and used your intelligence wisely. The ugly thing: please. I can only name three things that are even remotely decent about myself when it comes to looks.

    Please don't kill yourself. I don't know who you are or exactly what you've gone through... But you don't deserve to die. Especially not at your own hands. Think of all the time we have ahead of us! All the amazing things we could do in the future if we get through our situations now! Never give up hope, my friend. Things WILL get better for you, as they did for me. Never forget that you have a place in this world and that you're here for a reason. And don't forget there are people who understand.

    You're not alone. Don't give up.

    I hope I helped some :)

  • I dont hate you!

  • Don't commit suicide - the real name for it is self-murder, and you will end up in H***, never being able to get out. Ask Jesus Christ of Nazareth to forgive you for all your sins, (known and unknown) and ask Him to be a member of His family forever. Then, find a good Bible-believing church, (you can call the 700 club prayer line - they will recommend one to you) and go to Bible study and prayer meetings often! God bless you sweetie - don't give up, give it over to Jesus!

  • PLEASE READ THIS:
    I wouldn't go talk to that person that gave you their yahoo messenger. That could be a cyber predator.
    Anyways, I just want to give you a big hug right now. Honey, I have been in your shoes a million times. I know it's hard to feel that way. But I think you should really go talk to a counselor at school. You are so young and even though the world seems as if it's ending right now at 13 you have YEARS AND YEARS of life and opportunities ahead of you. Think of all the beautiful things in life and everything around you a be happy. Read Anne Franks diary. Confide in a school counselor. Or maybe even your parents if you trust them enough. Things will get better. Keep making good grades so you can go to college. DON'T EVER kill yourself. Your life is worth so much more. YOU'RE WORTH IT. Please read all of this. I couldn't bear to think of a girl so young killing herself. You are beautiful on the inside, and you're smart, I bet you could get into an ivy league school. You'll find love one day. I promise. -Lauren

  • I wouldn't go talk to that person that gave you their yahoo messenger. That could be a cyber predator. Anyways,
    I just want to give you a big hug right now. Honey, I have been in your shoes a million times. I know it's hard to feel that way. But I think you should really go talk to a counselor at school. You are so young and even though the world seems as if it's ending right now at 13 you have YEARS AND YEARS of life and opportunities ahead of you. Think of all the beautiful things in life and everything around you a be happy. Read Anne Franks diary. Confide in a school counselor. Or maybe even your parents if you trust them enough. Things will get better. Keep making good grades so you can go to college. DON'T EVER kill yourself. Your life is worth so much more. YOU'RE WORTH IT. Please read all of this. I couldn't bear to think of a girl so young killing herself. You are beautiful on the inside, and you're smart, I bet you could get into an ivy league school. You'll find love one day. I promise. -Lauren

  • YOU!!!! I was in your shoes. To be honest as you grow older it is not so bad. The world becomes a bit less awkward and we bloom into these more graceful adults. I look back on grade school and can honestly say i would never ever want to be there again. What i can tell you is that kids are mean. They will say anything to hurt you and they usually will say what they are most insecure about. If they say you are ugly Well... they are dumb because you have straight a's and when they can do as well as you then they can have the right to say something to you. But being that your are intellectually far superior to them dont allow their cheap shots affect you they are just mad because they are not as smart as you. You are better than that . As for your brother.. That is what they are there for. When i was your age i said the same things to mine (And so did they ) but he doesnt mean it. Deep down inside, as cliche as it sounds, he loves you and he is a boy so that is awkward right now. Dont you know brothers tease sisters?

    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, SMART, AND SPECIAL. AFTER ALL THERE IS ONLY ONE OF YOU ISNT THERE? :)

  • Hey so I just wanna say.. teen years are really hard. Most of your classmates won't admit it but more than half of them are probably depressed. When you are a teen there are chemical imbalances in your head that make you moody and sad. It could be a permanent thing cause i have a friend who was like that but she's in her twenties now and shes really happpy. She's even getting married to a great guy in a few months... but to me it more sounds like you are just going through the h*** that is calle grade school. I'm a nerd too and I've been called ugly as well but there are things that are fun to do that make you feel good about yourself.... you just need to find where you fit in. I embraced my nerdiness.. and when you get to university you'll be surrounded by nerds! Just give it time. Have confidence in yourself and talk to your parents or someone you trust. Just know somewhere out there, even if you don't think so, there will. Be someone missing you so much if you gave up on life right now. Have confidence in yourself and believe... you are beautiful <3 talk to me if you need. I'll check back

  • Let me start out by saying,thanks for commenting on my post.
    How did you get through the day att school with all the dirty jokes and rude comments thrown at you?
    I feel like my brother really meant what he said.I know all brothers probably say stuff like that,but when he said it I was already crying because my parents were yelling and screaming at me.
    FYI,I can't trust anyone.My friends would just think that I was just joking around and my parents would probably just send me to a rehab for mentally ill children, so I wouldn't ruin their precious reputation.In my family,it is all about my brother and never about me.This house either revolves around my parents or my older and younger brother.The only thing that I could think of to get out of my terrible life is suicide.If someone switched places with me for one day,they would see how much my parents really care about me.

    Thanks again for commenting,
    Writer of Post Above(singergirl16019)

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