I want to kill..
Sometimes I just want to slaughter people until someone stops me. I often fantasize about chopping bodies up. I am a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic with signs of a personality disorder. I've been off of my meds for years, and am just now starting to feel myself slowing slipping into psychosis.
I just can't handle things anymore. Everyone says I need to go back on medication. I can't force myself to go to the doctor. It's like I have no more willpower.