I want to kill..

Sometimes I just want to slaughter people until someone stops me. I often fantasize about chopping bodies up. I am a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic with signs of a personality disorder. I've been off of my meds for years, and am just now starting to feel myself slowing slipping into psychosis.

I just can't handle things anymore. Everyone says I need to go back on medication. I can't force myself to go to the doctor. It's like I have no more willpower.


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  • Nah, you're just some goth c*** from the burbs.

  • nobody should have to have schizophrenia but unfortunately that's the way it is. some people get it and some dont. it sucks having to convince your brain that its lying to you. But taking your meds is the only way to improve your life quality and get on with life. you dont want to be stuck in this stage forever... i bet you have a lot of family who love and support you as best they can. turn to them in times of need. things will get better <3

  • You show an awful lot of clarity for a paranoid schizophrenic whose been off his meds for years. Either you're a horrible liar, or you're looking for someone to tell you it's ok to do what you've been thinking about. Either way, you're a useless d*********.

    You don't want meds or willpower. You want permission.

  • I think I know you.

  • You have all the willpower in the world you are just making excuses for yourself. Please go to the doctor. as soon as you read this, set up an appointment.

  • You had the willpower to write this confession. So take it one step further and get the help you know you need and get back on meds. The alternative of either you hurting someone, yourself or spending years in a prison is not an option.

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