I still can't help but think of killing myself every waking moment. This depression, this anxirty..It's destroying me.
Please don't kill yourself. There are people who care about you and don't want you to do that to yourself. Think about your family, friends, etc. It sounds like you are very overwhelmed. Talk with a doctor or counsellor. There a are crisis line numbers like the one mentioned above. There is also the crisis line number(1-250)763-9191. Get yourself some help. I have been where you are now and it does suck, but it also get's better!!
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