My lack of experience and social life
I've never had a girlfriend. I've never been kissed by one. I've never had s** with one. I've never been on a date. And that's sad and, maybe even more, embarrassing. But every now and then there comes a time when I don't think about s** or dates. And kissing, and I don't know if it's my idea or if I read it somewhere, is something different. The thing that matters the most is not having anyone who would be willing to spend time with me only because of who I am and who would be happy about it. The truth is, I don't think I'm an interesting person. I don't have any particular hobbies or interests. Anyway, what is the most depressing thing of all is the feeling of not having anyone to turn to, whether in good times or bad. I have nobody to share my happiness or sadness with. And since I have no friends I pretty much bottle everything up. But I don't think you can share everything with a friend. Everyone has their own problems. Maybe it's because I'm a guy. Anyway, lately I've been feeling like talking and I don't think I could share everything with anyone but a girlfriend. But how do you get one when you've never been on a date and are 22 years old? The funniest thing is I'm actually good looking, judging by how pretty are the girls attracted to me. But the problem is they don't know anything about me and my lack of experience. What's more I haven't been really attracted to any girl in a long time (since high school).