I'm so nervous about this.... : /
I go to a school where everyone is judged by their appearance. I'm not a self-conscious girl, and I'm quite strong. I usually don't care what anyone thinks, but the upcoming school year is near and I'm just kind of nervous. My 2 best friends are going to a different school, and I only hung out with them. :( I don't want to sit alone at the lunch table. I'm also always jealous of my bff who is leaving so (it's horrible, but i'm kind of happy that she's leaving. no boys have a crush on me, and it's because i felt like she was prettier at the time.) Anyway, my family doesn't have a lot of money. my mom just got a second job to support us. i lost a lot of weight and i cannot fit my old clothes. I really wanna be fashionable this year, because i hated the way i looked last year. i've got about three pairs of pants that i can actually fit. my mom got me 5 more (and i'm so thankful for them) but they are all the same pair of pants. :( I don't wanna care what I look like this year, but part of me can't stop obsessing. it's like, i'll be the girl with the horrible clothes and no friends, and i feel so alone, when i think about it. my biggest problem right now is my clothes right now. my hair is fine, right now i guess. if my mom does my hair right (and lately she sucks at doing hair) it'll come out fine. it's my clothes though. everyone's telling, oh just get accessories, get this. get that. WE CAN'T AFFORD IT. I'm going to pray to God that I can get new clothes, and a new attitude. the thing i'm mostly afraid of is everyone judging me. i don't want the freshmen coming in looking better than me. it's vain, i know. so vain, and i hate feeling like this. any advice? just comment below.