Lost my faith in life.
Well, first of all, I've always wanted to become a lawyer because I've always believed that it was the most perfect way of justice. This is my first year in law school and I realized that I don't believe in anything that the law states.
Then I made up my mind and knew that I wanted to study Politic Science, but everyone around me says that if I do that, I won't be able to make any money, and that I would if I became a lawyer. I'm so passionate about Politic Science, but no one seems to think I could make a living out of it, and it bothers me.
But that's not the main problem. I have no faith at all. I used to think that God had a plan for us all, that someday I would find someone that I could love, now I think the complete opposite of that. Now, I believe that we are born, we live, and we die, end of story. The body dies and there is no after life.
And that has made me realize that I don't know what I'm living for. I don't want to live anymore. I've already tried to kill myself a few years ago, but I thought I was over that, guess I was wrong.
I thought I knew who I was, but I don't even know that anymore.