I'm a 29 year old married mother of
I'm a 29 year old married mother of 3.... well I only birthed 2, the middle child is my stepson.. but I might as well be his mother. I have been married for over 6 yrs to a wonderful man that I have known since I was 13. I have a child from a prev relationship that is 13, my stepson is 9 and then we have a little one together. Here are all of the horrible things that go through my mind on a daily basis and I want to get them out!!! I have to get them out! I'm a contiributing member of society.. go to work everyday, make plenty of money and take care of my kids like anyone else does... but.....
*** i smoke pot on a daily basis.. sometimes I start at 7am before i leave for work, smoke a little during lunch and then immediately start smoking again when I get home off an on until I go to bed. ( i hide in my bathroom where the kids cant see me)
*** i also pop xanax like candy,. sometimes 3-4 per day.
***i think about killing myself almost daily, but i dont think i would ever follow through w/ it
*** i've been conversing w/ an x-boyfriend of mine from high school that i ran into at my high school reunion lst year. i feel an overwhelming need to sleep w/ him and he feels the same way. we just havent made it that far yet. so far, it's only contact by email but every time we get closer and closer to scheduling a meet up. i'll end up cheating on my husband.. who is a wonderful father and husband and doesnt deserve it!
I"M A TERRIBLE PERSON!