Mustn't let them see me cry
Why? When I say that I can't remember, I can't! And yet they glare at me with a look that says they dont't believe me. My memories have gotten blurrier and blurrier, and I have to try even to remember the smallest thing and pull it out of that mass. Sometimes I am sure things are draining away, like when I am talking and suddenly I can't remember simple words, like and, to, for and things like that. Words everyone uses every day. However it's been getting worse for the last year, worse than it's been in the amount of time I can clearly remember. The memories I know I didn't make to fill the gaps.Because I do that too. You can't understand how wrong it feels to be missing bits, or how easy it is to cover them over.I wan't to cry so much, but for some reason it seems wrong, forbidden for this little girl to cry. WHY? i only want them to care more about me than my grades. I don't want to be alone. Is that so wrong? For my family to love me? WHY?