I hate myself
That I should have told my mom years ago. From the first time he touched me. I let my stepdad manipulate and control me and use me. The only one that's suffering is me now and some days I can't even breathe. I wish men acted like adults and took care of little girls like they should. I can't believe I let him live with me for all these years and smile at him and joke with him. Why am I so afraid to tell somebody. I should have told my mom. I confess that this happened years ago but I have nightmares every night and it makes me uncomfortable and depressed.