I'm a 45 year old man and I've lived my

I'm a 45 year old man and I've lived my life in fear. I hate myself and I have no friends. I have told no one that I was sexually abused for two years when I was a child living in the suburbs south of San Francisco. I was raised by my single mother who put me in nursery school (now we call it daycare) while she was at work. That's where it happened. I have always felt worthless and disgusting. I can't even look people in the eye.

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  • Get angry. It's ok. Just don't hurt anyone with your anger. Accept that it will never leave your mind but you have to just keep on getting on. F*** the fear. Fight it. That will always be there too but what so many people who fear like you do...and many do fear like you do...is that on the otherside of fear is peace.

    "I will not fear. Fear is the mind-killer..". All you have to do is walk through the fear and you will find it evaporates away to nothing.

  • Get over it sexual abuse really aint s*** people have weak minds its in the past people get there genitals cut off and sewed up in africa and much worse they get over it you can to your just a simple person in a simple life and yes iv been sexually molested =P f*** it lol i live my life happily every day

  • Abuse is a very tough thing to handle. It leaves an inprint on you for the rest of your life. That's the bad news. The good news is it doesn't have to be the rest of your life. While that chapter may always be there don't let it define who you are. You are 45 now and this happened when you were a child. I don't mean to be rude but get over it. Get help. You are old enough to know and recognize your problem and seek the necessary help to get past it. It's possible. You have to open your self back up to the world so you can trust people again. Please get professional help before you wake up old and realize that you wasted your life away worrying about what happened to you as a child.

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