I had my first sexual experience when I
I had my first sexual experience when I was 9 with a girl, 11, who lived downstairs from me. She was on top of me when my mom walked in on us. Both of us got the beatings of our lives. Two years later, I was sexually abused by my oldest sister numerous times. I spent most of my childhood seeing my mom and my sisters get physically abused by my father. My first girlfriend cheated on me and broke things off. I came close to married my second girlfriend, but somehow things fell apart. Every girl I meet now either want to be just friends or they want to use me to get with my friends. I have not been in a relationship in 8 years. I have not been on a date in two years. Should I just go ahead and kill myself or is this life actually worth living?