Help me...

I'm a 15 year old girl I'm bulimic and I'm depressed. I put on a smile for everyone but really, I'm screaming out my lungs on the inside. I feel like I'm falling apart. I used to be a "good" person. Now I'm sneaking around with guys double my age, doing things I shouldn't, coming home, binging and purging, then crying myself to sleep. I want to be a model, I want to feel beautiful, I want to be loved...

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  • First, don't be a model (I work around them and they're all train wrecks)...

    Second, you're still young (even though you've heard this before). I promise you, HORMONES have a lot to play in this mix. They'll balance out eventually. So remember, don't make too many life-damaging decisions at this age or it will haunt you when your head comes back together.

    Third, you still are a good person. Just confused (like everyone at 15). Stop going with the guys double your age (because they're twisted to be messing around with an underage girl), and get yourself into counseling for the eating disorder. Not only will you do some major damage to your internal organs, but say goodbye to your teeth, skin, hair, nails or any chance at your hormones balancing out. Find something you love doing and make it an active hobby to fill your spare time. I promise you, if you don't continue the damage pattern, things will even out. In the meantime, start by immediately getting yourself some new friends and definitely change your role models; because you're looking up to the wrong people. You can change what's happening right now if you can grasp the concept that "reality is perception." You'll get there. Every day is a new chance to completely start over. Try taking a look at someone who has it worse, like 'Nick Vujicic' or 'Sheila Radziewicz.' Anything is possible.
    Best of luck to you darlin'.

  • get help..ur too young to be going through this..but first you must realize u need help and want to help yourself..realize u are loved by the people that surround you..

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