Im such a loser

Two days ago, I had a dream. In that dream, my older sister was pregnant and she was in labor pain. I was also in the dream I just stood there watching helplessly as she writhed in pain.

Fast forward, my sister gave birth to a baby boy, sound asleep in his white baby blanket.

Now this may seem utterly ridiculous to you but I was burning with jealousy. In that dream, I kept thinking, why can't it be me? Why can't I have a baby too?

You see, in real life - my sister hates children. She doesn't want one.

I, on the other hand, can't dream of anything more beautiful of having your own children. I had always wanted my own family but I am never lucky in the love department.

I never had a boyfriend and it looks like no man is about to fall in love with me soon. Guys just interested in me, I'm just not girlfriend material.

I suppose it's my fate to end up forever alone.

It was just a dream but it bothered me that she got what I want the more than anything.

I suppose I am one of those unlucky ones.

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  • Last night I dreamed that I was reading a bunch of phoney confessions on confessionpost.com Oh wait! It was true! Its happening now!! :)

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  • One thing I am going to ask is how old are you?

    At the same time though, it is never too late to fall in love and get married. Can nature slow us down in the kids department? Sure, but in the rare case that that is your situation, there are still ways to impart yourself as a parental figure to children.

    And don't feel bad about the dream. Your sister isn't actually having a baby, so don't worry about it. And if she did? I'm sure she would fall instantly in love with it - and you sound like you would make a wonderful Auntie.

    Long story short? True love is out there. Keep out there and you'll find it - maybe it is someone just like you, looking for the same things.

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