Im such a loser
Two days ago, I had a dream. In that dream, my older sister was pregnant and she was in labor pain. I was also in the dream I just stood there watching helplessly as she writhed in pain.
Fast forward, my sister gave birth to a baby boy, sound asleep in his white baby blanket.
Now this may seem utterly ridiculous to you but I was burning with jealousy. In that dream, I kept thinking, why can't it be me? Why can't I have a baby too?
You see, in real life - my sister hates children. She doesn't want one.
I, on the other hand, can't dream of anything more beautiful of having your own children. I had always wanted my own family but I am never lucky in the love department.
I never had a boyfriend and it looks like no man is about to fall in love with me soon. Guys just interested in me, I'm just not girlfriend material.
I suppose it's my fate to end up forever alone.
It was just a dream but it bothered me that she got what I want the more than anything.
I suppose I am one of those unlucky ones.