I Don't Know What To Do
Okay so long story short im 18 yrs old and i afriad that a dude may have stolen my heart the only thing is im str8 and he's str8 we have neveer had s** or done anything plus im madly in love with my bestfriend whos a female. she argues me down everyday that the dude is gay and i always say he's not but im starting to think he is cuz imea he hugs me, stays the night with me and we even kissed although it was a a dare(which i didnt wanna do) then he always acts like im a bf like if i see him flirting he apologizes, why? yue know im really confused ive never been thru anything like this b4. i've even started having s** more to keep my mind off him but it doesnt work, and it would help more if when ppl make jokes about us being together he would deny them instead of egging it on. but then everytime we talk about it he says he str8 so it got to the point where i told him that i dont wanna be friends anymore if he can't tell me that he's anything other than str8 but he's all like come on man yue mean alot to me and yur the only one who sees the reall me and i need yue and im stuck like omg. my bestfriend says he knows what he's doing and he likes me too but he afraid to act on it. this has been going on for 4 years since we were freshman and we're seniors now, going to graduate in may. and i'm just ready to get to the bottom of this and find out whats really going on yue know. any advice? this is like my only homosexual experience and idk how to handle it.