I am guilty. And I want a lover.
My best friend forced me to touch him and forced himself on me when I was a little girl at the age of 5; it was nothing serious, but looking back on it now, I think it has turned me into a nympho. I have been masturbating and touching myself since the second grade. I am the sweet innocent girl who everyone calls naive. When I had my first serious relationship at the age of 17 being naive changed. I had s** and felt guilty because of it being premarital s**. I started to look at p***. I haven't had s** for 2 years because I feel guilty everytime. But I want it. I need it. I miss it. I miss feeling like I have become apart of another person. I miss calling out their name in lusty pleasured bliss.
What's worse is that I want MORE. I want to be tied down and abused and rewarded with pleasure, I want to be f***** hard and rough and ruthlessly. I want to be practically raped. I want a man to have his way with me.....and lately...I want a women to have her way with me. I want to feel my b****** press hard agaisnt hers. I want to bite her flesh and feel her wetness on my fingers. I can't think of anything more arousing and sensual than licking along her slick lips.
I am a girl. I am straight. I am Christian. And I am Guilty.