Hate that I love you.
I love you so much words can't even begin to describe it. I imagine my life with you every single day and I can't stand the thought of you not in it. I miss your humor, your cute romantic side even though you don't think you have one, you do. I miss your kisses, your touch. I miss everything about you. Even though we havent had much to talk about lately, just being around you satisfies me. I can't stand the fact that you're with another girl. But I'm so scared of telling you my feelings cause you're such a chicken when it comes to emotions. You run at the mention of the future and try to avoid any and all talk about love and being serious. I honestly don't know what to do with myself anymore. I've tried so many other guys but none of them can compare to you. I ALWAYS think to my self "but he was this and that" I always wish they were you. I wish you were the one going on dates with me and making random trips with me to the middle of nowhere. I wish you would be my best friend and we could have all the spontaneous trips you want together. I just want to live my life with you and no other guy. No guy can be you. You are the only guy I ever think about or crave. I always wish you are by my side. I hate the whole dating scene. I only do it to keep my mind off of you but honestly it just makes me think about you even more cause none of these random guys i try out are like you. You are my match. I just wish one day I could tell you all of this without freaking you out or making you feel awkward. Sometimes I just want to tell you anyways cause I want you to know how I feel about you and how real my feelings are for you. But I'm too afraid of you being out of my life for good. At least for now I can see you when we all hang out and it won't be awkward. But one day, I will tell you how I feel. I will tell you that I love you with all of my heart. I just hope that one say is soon, cause its killing me inside that you don't know how strongly I feel for you....
You do need to tell him.. You are just making it worse for uself. If you tell him you will stop wondering and guessing. Maybe he will choose u or maybe someone else but at least u will know! Stop putting this off!
You are standing at the edge of a tall cliff....but, it is only a mirage, it's an invisible floor...close your eyes and tell him...