Out of my league.
So, there's this boy that I'm starting to slowly develop a crush on...but I keep trying to convince myself that I shouldn't let my feelings get any stronger. I already know I can't have him. He's way out of my league. He's the smartest person in our entire school, is extremely involved in school and the community, is considered "popular" and everyone knows him and respects him. Besides being extremely gorgeous, he's just a great, honest, and hardworking person. That's not something you see very often in high schools nowadays.
Me? I'm practically invisible at my school, slightly above average in academics, an aspiring writer who will probably never make it. As for looks? Could be much worse, but could be a lot better. There are so many other beautiful, skinny, smart, and talented girls that he could have. I just don't think I'm worthy of being around him, let alone dating him.
At the same time, I want to try. I have this small hope that things might go my way for once, but I know it's highly unlikely. Especially since I pledged to myself to stop obsessing over boys and concentrate on what's important.
I don't know what to do, or feel about it. We're both in our junior year of high school. I want to leave high school with at least one memory of taking a risk that was worth it.