I feel so guilty
I am 23 years old with a wife and 2 kids. I feel shameful but I have to come clean. I want to have an affair with my neighbors daughter. The second issue; she's 14. She babysits the kids when my wife and I go out. And every time I talk to her and get to know here a little more, I fall that much deeply in love with her. I think she has the same feelings for me. I want to wait till shes 18, then divorce my wife and marry her. I hate myself for this. I truly do. And if it goes on, well I'm afraid to think what will happen to me.
And I've thought of telling her, but what if she tells her friends? her parents? my wife? I don't know what to do.