My Teenage Story

I am a 16 year old boy from the Midwest. I have been smoking cigarettes from the age of 14 and I am addicted. I have smoked marijuana on and off since then as well, but for the past 5 months I have been high almost every day. I have also done mushrooms, oxycodone, adderall, flexeril, huffed paint thinner, and consumed copious amounts of alcohol. I also feel that I may be aware of myself becoming mentally insane. I have heard voices inside my head ever since I was a child and I have never told anyone about it because I fear of being ostracized. I am also a virgin and I have an I.Q. of 136. I have thoughts of suicide and killing other people all the time, and I sit in my room for 4-6 ours at a time in the dark staring at nothing. I have a deep-seated hatred for my step-father and I have often dreamed of killing him. I have tried therapy but it has not worked. I do not want to become institutionalized. Any advice on my current situation would be greatly appreciated.

Report this

2 Comments

  • newest
  • oldest
  • most replies
  • most popular
  • I think u should come clean to Ur parents and tell them how u feel. that's what i did and now i help pepole with these probelms. u should also try to not do any such drug. about 40.000 die of drug abuse. u should tell Ur mom if Ur step-father is doing something bad to u. ok?

  • I'm afraid I don't really have any advice for you. All I can say is that you are not alone.
    I'm thinking of you.

Account Login
Signup
Is this post inapropriate?
Is this comment inapropriate?
Delete this post?