What's wrong with me - PLEASE HELP
Ok so I'm a 15 yr old girl (thought u should know this cuz idk if being a teenager has something to do with this). I get really anxious with most of the things I do. I'm quite a confident person (for a teenager) but I've recently been getting more and more anxious. I do suffer from anxiety and panick attacks but it has been getting worse. I used to cut and I get anxious from not being able to anymore, it stresses me out sometimes. That's a whole other confession tho. What I came here to get some help with are these voices.
Only my sister know about this and I told her briefly. I trust her a lot. Basically I sometimes hear these voices in my head whispering things to me. Most of the time they're just screaming/shouting and recently I did hear a dog growling which was weird and new. The things they say range and usually are quite odd. The most recent said 'just go to sleep'. This caused me to have a panic attack and now I'm paranoid things are following me. I can feel them watching me. Idk what they are.
To sleep I take sleeping pills now because otherwise I have literally no chance of any rest. I twitch my head a lot (mostly when I'm thinking dark thoughts like killing myself or cutting which both of them I have attempted tho obviously I haven't succeeded in killing myself). My parents only know I'm slightly sad and anxious but I hide a lot from them because I hate my mum and my dad (don't get me wrong he is a really good father) doesn't have much sympathy.
I basically live in a world of only one person I trust and even then I get paranoid she hates me. (My sister). I hate school so much I feel like every time I come home I need to wash myself clean. Sometimes I randomly feel faint and light headed but I think that's due to panic attacks? Idk. Please comment anything to help me. I really need it. Maybe tell me a similar story u have? Idk if this is normal for teenagers or not because my sense of judgement is way off. I hate reality as well, I have this phobia of it so I daydream a lot which usually turns to voices or dark thoughts and love to play games to get away from it.
I don't wanna sound like some pathetic teenager trying to get people to sympathise but I need help and doing it anonymously is the only way I feel comftorble.