Lucky I'm in love with my bestfriend?

The story goes way down so sit back...

Five or so years I go I moved to this new school, and in the beggining I didn't talk to anyone (I'm really shy), but I heard this girl at my class talking about The Simpsons (our favorite show) and decided to join the conversation.

At first, it was like this, we would talk about The Simpsons everyday, asking if we had seen any new episodes. Soon enough we started talking about other stuff and by the end of the semester she was my closest friend at school. She introduced me to a lot of other people and we had great times. She was my friend and that was it. Of course, the jokes about us being in love were told at every opportunity, but we would laugh along. I had even nicknamed her Blondie.

Two and a half years later (at the end of the 10th grade) I started falling for her, I realised she was everything I had ever dreamed about a girl, she was smart, funny, great to be around, sexy, beautiful, had sense of humor, liked the same bizarro stuff I did...just perfect, and all of our friends agreed we were a match made in heaven. Except her. Taking advice, I confessed my love but it didn't work out so great.

"We're just friends...". This made me so drepessed I almost killed myself (for a girl, yeah).

I got used to the fact we wouldn't be together, and even tough I wasn't over her at all, we would still hang out, yes, I loved her that much.

A whole year passed (now to 2012, the 12th grade)and this new girl started in my class and we easily connected. I asked her out on a date and we started going out. Blondie got super-jealous and stopped talking to me. When I broke up with the new girl (she wasn't so great), Blondie didn't even wait a week to tell me "something". This "something" is that she wanted me to be her sexbuddy. At first I was like "WHAT?" but of course I accepted, I'm a 16 year old virgin... But there was one condition, she wanted to wait for the right momment and it had to be a kept a secret.

About two or three weeks after (I told one of my best guy friends) we started realising she was acting different towards. Whenever I talked to or about another girl she would other walk away or change the subjects as fast as she could. She started saying "I wuv you" almost all the time and we started talking a whole lot more, and we already were the closest in our group of friends.

I the realised, I myself still had feelings for her, of course I did, she was and still is the perfect girl for me, and again, I'm not the only one that thinks so.

No, we still haven't had s** yet, and no, this story is not over, but I had to take it off my chest, I am so confused. I don't know what she wants, what I want and what the h*** am I supposed to do... If anyone had the guts to read the whole story trough, please help me, I'm going LOCO.

Mar 31, 2012

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  • It sounds like she doesn't know what she wants either and if she cares for you, she'll realise that she can't be selfish and monopolise your feelings like this.

    It can be hard to tell someone the truth, but try to get her to tell you how she really feels about you and then tell her how you feel: 1) you think she's your perfect woman 2) she's confusing you (don't say she's driving you crazy, that gives her too much power over you and she might use that to her advantage unconsciously)3) you're not sure what this relationship is.

    You should know that your right to happiness doesn't depend on her. It's a terrible thing to lose a close friend (I have, but you realise certain things) - friendship and love are about sharing, equality and mutuality.

    Some people, no matter how close you are to them will only stay in your life for a short period; others will come and go and some will be a friend forever. The difference is knowing which category a relationship falls into (whether it's one which you should hold onto tightly or let it end) and giving every relationship a chance.

    Hope this helps, but don't let your happiness depend on one person alone. A more stable relationship is one where both people are secure with themselves and don't place an entire burden on the other.

  • She sounds like she just likes the attention you give to her. I suggest to act less interested in her and see what happens.

  • My son, attend unto my wisdom, and bow thine ear to my understanding:

    That thou mayest regard discretion, and that thy lips may keep knowledge.

    For the lips of a strange woman drop as an honeycomb, and her mouth is smoother than oil:

    But her end is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword.

    Her feet go down to death; her steps take hold on h***.

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