I hate my job
I absolutely hate my job and my life right now. I'm stuck here for at least a year in a profession that makes me sick to my stomach everyday, that causes me unbelievable stress and countless hours of work, and often times leaves my crying on my way home in the car at night...sometimes even in the morning going to work. I'm getting paid nowhere close to my level of worth and they know it, and I absolutely hate it here (city, atmosphere, culture, etc.). I gave up a lot of promising opportunities within my field of study that pay twice what I'm making now because I knew I needed to grow and challenge myself. And while it is challenging and I've learned a great deal and my colleagues truly appreciate my work, I still can't help but hear my alarm go off in the morning and have my first thought be dreading the day ahead...dreading every second of wasting my life right now not doing something I have interest in. I can't even talk to anyone about how I feel or how frustrating it is to absolutely hate having to stomach each day of work when my colleagues went to school for this field of study/profession - I honestly don't know how they do it or how they would ever want this for themselves. I'm almost to the point where I can't even focus anymore on the tasks at hand at work (and my god they have abused the h*** out of my incredible work ethic to say the least) because I'm getting stuck on how much I truly despise every second I'm wasting. Meanwhile my friends are in fields they enjoy, they have lives they enjoy, they laugh and have fun and I feel like I'm stuck hating every move I make until I can part ways with my contract. I still have 5 more months until I've fulfilled my initial one year agreement, but I feel like crap everyday coming to work and smiling at my colleagues knowing that they have no idea how much I hate all of it and being there. I just feel so alone, so lost, stuck, angry, frustrated, stressed, annoyed, unhappy and regretful.