I have this strange "addiction" to roleplay romance of the characters, Naruto and Sasuke, from the anime, Naruto. In essence, I will act out, by myself, different stories and plotlines that are either stuck in my head or that just come to the surface. I am always the character Sasuke.
They are both men, and I have several different fantasies about the two fictional characters, which can range from roughly the original story with twists to modernized to apocalypse to a complete fantasy world. It is almost always a romance, and usually starts out with them either not knowing each other, being just friends, or some sort of relationship in which they are not lovers.
It is always by myself, and when someone is near, I silence my voice and cease my actions. I have never told another human being, and I used to roleplay with a close friend and my brother (separately) as children, and now we have grown up, yet I haven't grown out of this nasty addiction. I don't feel dirty or anything, I only feel embarassed. Childish. Immature.
Is there anyone out there who does the same as I? If there is, I would feel a great relief.
And it's strange. I am no anime freak. I don't watch any anime. I don't even watch Naruto anymore. Or read Manga, for that matter. I read fanfiction for inspiration, but that's about it.
Maybe I'll outgrow it. I'm 17. Or maybe I'll find somebody who will be my Naruto.