I met the most perfect woman, but...
I met the most perfect women. She is everything I have ever wanted. Young, independent, beautiful, smart, petite, sexy, exotic, considerate, kind, and always smiles.
She always wears high heels and loves to wear them. She says they are more comfortableto her. She always wears skirts, and tight skirts for dates with me. She is the most feminine women I ever met.
She is well educated. She has a very big heart, and works for a charity for kids.
She goes about her days buzzing around in her high heels, happily taking care of her business.
She adores me, loves me for who I am. She listens to me, wants to know how my day went. I love to hear her voice, and be near her. She adores me, wants me, desires me. I would do anything this women wants, but she wants nothing from me, except my love. Her private area is always shaven and is perfect. She is the sweetest tasting women I have ever had.
She insists on going dutch, and always wants to pay, even though she does not make no wear near as much money as me. I do not allow it, it is the one of two things we argue over, the other being that she should not be with me.
I am 16 years older then her. She says she likes my wrinkles. She says she loves my mind. It was as if god himself picked an angel to send down from heaven, just for me.
I am married with kids. My kids adore me and I adore them. I am a good father. I listen to them, play with them want to spend time with them. It would break my heart not to see them everyday.
My wife has not had s** with me for 9 months. Before that 6 months. Every opertunity she was not feeling, well, too tired, and has, a headache.These issues would come up even before we got home from a night out. I suspect she was cheating on me. I treated her good, and would take a bullet for her. We went to counciling. When they agreed with me she wanted another doctor. It is not me. I work hard, earn very good money.
I gave up every hobby to spend time with her or save money, that she spends into excessive debt. Every chance she had she would belittle me. Put me down, how I was worthless. I help out around the house all the time, but she would just nit-pic my my house work. This women has been shredding my ego for years, tearing down everything I was, and what I could have been. Destroying my confidence. At work, I am the go to guy and have no confidence issues. It is only with my wife.
So that is were I am at. I will wait until my youngest child is in their late teens, before I divorce. I will do anything for my kids, even sacrifice my happiness and needs. I pretend and talk nice to my wife in front of the kids. She does the same most of the time but will sometimes lash out.
I walk away when she tries to argue, hold my tongue and ignore her jibes. And when the kids go to bed, I go to the sofa, she our bed.
How did this happen to me? I am a good lover in bed. I always put her needs first.
You young guys out there, do not get married until you are 45. You have no clock, you can still have kids at 80 if you wanted. Have them with a 30 year old when your 45. Don't fall for it. Play the field. Think with the head on your shoulders, and not your other head, and your other head will get more in the long run.
I regret that I can not spend the next 5 years of my life with my true love, that I will have to wait a 1/2 decade. My true love understands this and respects this. She wants children when she is 35. I will give her children.
I know its wrong, and am not looking for validation. I have heard the mid life crisis thing. I have argued with my girlfriend she should be with someone closer to her age, and I would understand if she left me. She chooses to stay, and no one is more shocked then me. I fully understand if she left, and would expect it. She has already given more to me then I ever thought possible and changed me forever, and has restored me to who I really am.
I would hope my story would prevent this from happening to someone else. So when you b**** women out there say I am the one who is no good for cheating on my wife, FU.