I lie. A lot. And it comes so naturally. I've been lying about who I am ever since I was 14. I lied about me coming from a rich family, I bragged about things that did not happen. I wanted to be special, to be accepted; to be above your average joe. I wanted to befriend people who are "better".
And by lying about my family background, my past experiences, it made me feel..well, better about myself. I'm not good at anything, but a jack of all trades.
I am now 19, but lying about these things has just been so natural to me that I can't even stop myself anymore at times. I want people to have good lasting impressions on me, I want people to think of me as..well, perfect, more or less. I want approval. Somehow, by being the "real" me, with my average lifestyle, average everything, I don't feel confident at all.
I don't know if all this makes any sense at all, but yeah. I haven't told a single soul about this before, because I'm afraid that they might judge me. I'm sorry for being a liar all this time, I'm sorry for deceiving everybody around me about who I am.