What's wrong with me?

I've been questioning my sexuality more and more recently. My brother is gay and although my parents accept it, I know they would rather he be straight.
Ever since Homecoming of my Freshman year, I've had feelings for my best friend. She has no idea and I'm sure she would never feel the same way despite how supportive she is of gay rights.
I'm afraid to sleep becaus I keep having terrifying, graphic dreams, and I usually wake up wanting to cry out of guilt.
I'm scared she'll find out and hate me.
I'm scared my parents will want to get rid of me.
I don't know what to say to my boyfriend.
I want to just run away as soon as I can so that I could get a s** change and start over, and maybe when I come back I could be someone that she would want to be with.

Why does this have to happen to me?

May 28, 2012

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  • don't change for others if u do change do it for ur self! "#itgetsbetter"

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