I am not happy with my life and am
I am not happy with my life and am stuck in the proverbial downward spiral.. Im just not sure how low i am gonna go.
I had a nervous breakdown last week and was gonna go to rehab for drinkin but convinced my fam and friends i was just stressin about work and stuff.
I live with a man that treats me like a roller coaster, nice one day a ** the next.. i don't even love him anymore. i just live here because i have nowhere else to go..
Been seeing an old friend on the side and afraid to get too attached cause i know how messed up i am right now.
I just can't seem to get myself together..
it's 8 oclock.. im on my 4th beer getting ready for work....
i dont have the strength anymore to be as strong as i was when i was younger...
you need to make your OWN life -- by yourself -- without a man. that will help pull you up. independence is key. trust me. just do it. the longer you give your power away to a man because you think you have noplace else to go (**!), the weaker you will continue to get. and you will keep falling. you have plenty of places to go. get your own apartment. get a life. stop giving your power away. good luck.